A moments Insanity

I have this feeling like I'm heading in the wrong direction. I just feel out of control and totally out of my mind. This could be in part due to the fact that the dog ate most of my antidepressants and I have been without them for a week. It's a possibility. I've been tossing around the idea of opening my own forum...you know something that would fill the void that not working has left me with. But I've been wishy washy about the whole thing. I mean, it's a lot of work. I would like to enjoy my hobby, not have it turn into a lot of work. But on the other hand, I want a place that I can set my own limits on what is acceptable and what is not. A place where I can be creative in any way I choose to be. And so on and so forth goes this argument in my head. I also want a ferret for some odd reason. Found one, but not getting it. I have enough to worry about in my life. Maybe when Chris goes back to work I will get one. Anyway....that is what is rambling through my mind right now. Scary place to be stuck in....eh?