Doctor Visit

I went to the doctor this morning, Chris went with me. No changes in my meds this time, but some changes in lifestyle. I am supposed to turn over the money, checkbook and debit card to Chris. Which is hard, I'm used to having it all the time. I'm also supposed to start with a very small and very easy list of 3 things to do a day. After 2 weeks I'm supposed to add 1 thing to the list and keep going from there. This is supposed to keep me from getting overwhelmed. I am also to do 1 thing a week that makes me feel good, and to focus on positive things since I've been feeling so down. Maybe I can do this. Maybe I can dig myself out of this hole. I feel so helpless, kinda lost in the middle of it all. I can't even begin to know where to start. It feels like everything is over my head. So maybe these things will help me and I will get back on track.

It starts tonight

That's the name of the song I'm listening to right now. Love me some TobyMac and John Cooper!! However, it is an appropriate title. I got a new puppy. She is a 6 week old BullBoxer. She is absolutely adorable. I named her Satchel. I am hoping that she will give me a little boost and help me. Help me move more out of the depression and help me be able to get out and be more social. Lots of hopes riding on such a tiny little thing. But I have to have that hope, the other side of that is darker than I can bear to think about. So, I pin a ton of my hopes on little Satchel.

Problems with a good day

Well, this morning I am sitting in the car with Chris waiting to leave on a field trip with Attie's class when my phone rings. It's the school, they need me to come to the office because Kaelyn got caught stealing from the school's little store in the office. Needless to say I was not happy. I go in and talk to the counselor and to Kaelyn. I did not yell...for that I am proud. I call my mother to come and get her, because they suspended her until I can have a meeting with the principal. (who was in a meeting at the time) Chris decides to skip the trip and stay home to deal with Kaelyn, so he hops out of the car as we are pulling out. We had a good time at Tate Farms, despite Attie being overwhelmed by the sheer number of people there. Lots of good pics and she did have a good time. We even stopped for ice cream on the way home. She got a cute little pumpkin and I got a medium sized one. I always love the pumpkin patch field trip....it's my favorite. So, I get back home and talk to Kaelyn. We go over everything, the punishments, the reasons she should never do this again...all that stuff. I am just not sure what to do, this is the 2nd time this year she's been caught stealing. So, even though she is grounded...I don't see it having a lasting effect...she just got ungrounded from the first time and then turned around and did it again. Her counselor suggested having a parole officer talk to her and I thought about taking her for a tour of the jail. Try to scare the crap out of her with where this little problem could land her. I'm just baffled. I give my kids everything I can. They know stealing is wrong. This should be a cake walk decision. Why is she choosing wrong? I have no answer for this....it's frustrating!!!

New look for Halloween

I'm proud of it. LOL I did it all myself!! Maybe now I'll get my butt in gear and be on here more often!!

Obligatory Update

Not much is going on. Chris is still in work hardening. He's hating every minute of it. He's got 2 weeks until he checks in with the doctor. Hoping life gets more normal after this visit. Not sure if they will let him go back to work full time or not, I feel like it's still too early. I am just convinced he needs more time to heal before he starts chucking large bags of food again. I went in to the doctor early. I've not been doing so well in the past month. She put me on Lithium. I've been on it almost a week and I think it's working. Guess I need to give it some more time and see. I think I'm a little slower than I was. I don't have the urge to scream and run around the room anymore....so I'm guessing it's working a little. Other than that it's just business as normal. Oh, I did get 2 new kittens. They are Maine Coons, 3 months old. Their names are Alice and Bella. They are beyond cute, but wow are they active! They are very aggressive cuddlers as well. And Bella likes to bite me on the nose for some reason. Alice is cute, she has no tail. Well, that's all the fun I can think of for now. I'll try to post on a more regular basis...but we all know it'll be few and far inbetween!!

Back to work hardening

Chris started work hardening this week. I am hoping they are able to build up his strength in his arm without causing him terrible pain. He will do this for a month and then go back to the doctor for another evaluation. He's still working part time, mostly closing...which gets old. There's not much to tell, it is mostly just waiting until the next evaluation and hoping that it goes well and he can progress to the next level.

Getting back to normal

Chris started back to work part time this week. He still can't use his arm at all, but at least he's working. He's working nights, closing 5 nights a week, 5 hours a night. Not much, but a start back to normal. Kaelyn and Emma start school the 11th and Attie the 16th. Attie goes half days for the first 2 weeks, then she goes full time. So, that means the first of September will be a whole new ball game for the Vaughn house. The karate schedule will change that week, Attie will start preK full time and I will be alone for the majority of the day. I have no idea how I will handle it. I imaging that I will take a few naps and just enjoy the silence to begin with. I will be able to grocery shop without 3 kids slowing me down. I might even be able to go out to lunch for a change...who know what wild and crazy things I will get into...