An Ordinary World

But I won't cry for yesterday There's an ordinary world somehow I have to find and as I try to make my way to the ordinary world I will learn to survive That's what I'm listening to right now, and it's pretty spot on. I'm forgetting yesterday and moving on in search of a better world for myself. I'm reading in the Message and things are being revealed to me like they never have before. It doesn't matter what I look like, it matters what I act like. Actions speak, and I want my actions to speak for good. I feel more peace now than I have in a long time. I think maybe I've had a couple of good days, too. hehe Now to just work on the living a good life thing....

Maybe bloggin will make it better

I am having a sucky time. I feel bad, I'm in a bad mood. It's like my hormones have gone whacky. I am sleepy all the time. And right now, I have a tooth ache. So there, top that. I did read a little of the Bardic Pirate's blog...and well, I think my chi is bad. I need some relaxation in the form of security. Ah, to feel secure again...that would be nice. But as of right now...we are still on stand by....it's like life has been put on hold and we are waiting for permission to live again. Then again, maybe I'm looking at this the wrong way. Maybe life, with all of it's recent suckiness, is continuing on and I am the one stuck in the bubble of my own choosing. Oh, wise Bardic Pirate...what say you? Do your spirits give you advice on such things? Alas, your last entry was some of what I needed to hear. I've been stuck in this bubble and if your views are correct...I put myself there. Now I have to get myself out. That is where it all falls down of course, because right now I'm not sure where to go. It comes back to security. I have none right now. I feel like I'm on shifting sand...I want to be standing on solid ground. I just don't know how to get there from here...yet. Maybe it will become clearer to me in time. I'll let ya know one way or the other, tho...

The regularly scheduled update

Howdy folks. Again, nothing doing here. We are still in the same holding pattern that we have been in for years now. Just waiting. Chris has a job, just not much of one. I have started my own little business doing photo editing, but it's hard to get the word out. I've done some commercial work for Chris's boss and I'm working on some more. But it's not enough to live on. The kiddies are enjoying summer. We took off this past week and went to the Tennessee Aquarium. We had a ton of fun...in fact, I don't think I've uploaded pics of it yet. Shame on me!!! I did go out today and take pics of the kids, I was only a month or two overdue. Attie was the one who had the goofy looking faces today...so unusual for her. Kaelyn looks way to grown up in her's of course. Emma was nice and smiled alot for me. Other than that, nothing much has been going on. If you would, snag my banner below and direct people to either my DA page HERE or to my FB page HERE. I will love you forever for it!!

Boredom

Bordom makes you update your blog. lol Nothing going on. I'm just sitting here listening to Jars of Clay and waiting on it to be time for me to leave for the doctor. I've got an hour and a half to go. I wish I had been able to sleep later than 5, that would have been nice. I was gonna spend this summer sleeping in...hahaha. I have absolutely nothing interesting to tell, nothing has happened. Chris is back in school for the summer. The kids are enjoying being out of school. I got the house redone...it looks nice. Chris has a job now, but he's yet to get paid. I'm about to scream at all the crap we are being forced to put up with. It's unreal. But there's nothing else, so I have to believe that this is where we are supposed to be. What else is there to do? Anyway, that's an update on the whole boring situation. More next month...maybe better news...

Time for another Update

I have nothing better to do, so let's update the blog. I'm loving my layout for this month. The scrap kit is called So Chic and I can't remember where I bought it right now...but it was somewhere cool, I'm sure. Things that have gone on. Well most recently there was the largest and deadliest tornado outbreak in Alabama since the 7o's. Yeah, that was fun. Got to watch a tornado go past my house...it was about 3 miles south of the house. We have no damage, just a bit of debris in the yard. Most areas around us are devastated, however. We were one of the first to get power back...which is such a good thing or I would have gone mad. They told us to prepare for about 7 days without power, we had power back within 24 hours. School for Chris has gone well. He is waiting to see what the school decides to do about finishing the semester since Wallace State was hit as well. He is hoping he won't have to finish his course work and can just take the grades he has now. All A's. (grin) The kids are doing well. Kaelyn has been having some issues with her grades, but other than that everything is dandy. Attie gets out of school the 26th and the kids were scheduled to get out the 31st, but not sure how things will go after all this. They are still not back in school from the storms yet. Oh, and we have no air conditioning...lovely eh? We have to wait til everything is back open from the storms to get it fixed. So we bake and we wait. lol I can think of nothing else...not much has happened. We've just been sailing through waiting on things to get better. Hopefully they will in the very near future, but until then we will just hang on and go with the flow.

Time for an Update

Well, as you may have guessed from my absence, things have been extremely stressful. Chris of course lost his job, thank you to PetSmart for being such an ass and using him until the doctor released him and then firing him. Class act that. We have been without income for about 2 months now. Let me tell you things were stressful. We did qualify for a little help from the state and that put food on the table for the kids. Somehow, thanks to the kindness of others, our electric bill got paid. We were also able to keep the phones and the internet, both of which Chris needs for school and finding another job. We finally received a bit of good news when his unemployment was approved. I was able to buy the animals food this morning...and boy were they happy about it. They've been living off stale bread and cornbread for several days now. We have been able to arrange for the mortgage to be put off a month, which eased us through some of it. We've somehow kept gas in the vehicles for school. It's all been up to prayer as my mother would say. Chris is still combing through want ads and applying to any place that has walls, but still no calls. It's maddening. I have to try to have faith that all this is worth something and that there is a higher plan and a better life at the end of this mess. If not, it's all just madness. Well, that's my stressed out life in a nutshell....until next update....

A good week

Can you believe it? It's been a good WEEK!!! Despite all that is going on around us, I've had a good week. I've made a list this week and stuck to it. My living room is clean, my kitchen is clean, the den is clean (cluttered with stuff to be put in storage, but clean), the bathrooms are clean and the kids has been spruced up so they can use it again for showers. All I have left to do are the bedrooms and the laundry room and my house will be completely done! I'm excited. I got dad to use the tractor to pull up 3 bushes in my front yard today that I've been itching to get rid of...so they are gone! I plan on making a little butterfly garden around the crepe mertles now...which means I am going to have to learn to use a tiller. Not sure I like that, but I guess I will learn if I want it done. I wonder how much mulch costs? I better check into that as well. We also got some much needed good news this morning...we qualified for a little bit of assistance since Chris lost his disability. So that is a huge worry off my mind. I'm looking forward to tomorrow for a change. I may have put something on my list that I can't accomplish tomorrow, but I will work that out when I get to it. I'm going grocery shopping in the morning, as usual. Then I will try working on my bedroom for a bit. I've spent a lot less time on the computer this week. The only day I really missed it was yesterday when Chris had it at school. So to sum up...I've had a good week. LOL